Phase three

 How very daring to label this sudden burst of energy, of anger, as creative. Not wrong of her, no, but still brave. I guess I am typing to prove her right, or wrong. The words don't flow as easily, its forced but I am very much out of practice. That is another thing to add to the list of things I need to do:

speak up 

demand for more 

understand I am important 

act braver 

have certainty with myself.

None of these things will come easy or naturally, but its something that I need to do. I have a lack of trust and belief within myself which is rather damaging to my ego, which in turn means I need to built up more and more reliant on compliments and how other people view me as a result.

This is what the therapy is for, to see the damaging patterns, and stop it.