emilyandherthoughts

 Phase two. Several days after phase one I have decided to hit the keys again and produce something of note. Today's thought is really of connection, how we feel drawn to people and things to find meaning and purpose. I have often felt left out, floating out heavily rooted in one place. Maybe feeling a little lonely, and definitely disconnected. Today though I saw a friend I bonded with years ago, a person I remember feeling so identical too, even though we could not be more different. I cant help but think about us, how it feels like we are reflections of each other, maybe even we are each other but in different timelines. I cant find the right words for it honestly, but its something that I am so truly curious about.  We have an age gap of a few years, we are of different race, born different genders, but we have are born days apart, yes in different years, but both on a Thursday, with a Sagittarius sun and Virgo moon, original favourite colours were purple. We met and felt ...

Phase one seems an appropriate name, less pressure than chapter one, or anything of a nature that implies I need to make this a habit. I hope to make this a habit but the likelihood is, I like in many other aspects of my life, will eventually forget about this after three months and find something new to occupy my brain. But lets be very real here, half the time I don’t really have anything to occupy me, I spend my time doing nothing. I hate the question, what have you done this evening, nothing always means nothing for me. I stare at my phone or my TV but I get no result from it. I should study, take up a hobby, go for a run, ready a book. Anything that could add value to my life I could be doing, but I am not. I am not sure when I stopped doing things, but as I have been dating for the last few month its dawned on me that I do sweet FA. For anyone who doesn’t know what that means, it means f**k all.